Strength & Faith
Wednesday, August 20th, 2008When I was fifteen years old, I lived a miserable existence that I wished would end, but one day God revealed Himself to me and I saw Him for the first time. Over time I discovered my faith and eventually turned my life over to God and asked forgiveness for not believing and for trying to do things my own way, for not seeing Him for who He is. While life remained a daily struggle, I began to change within and to hold onto that hope I’d been given that there was more to life than just existing.
Many years have passed since that change began and I’ve changed in a lot of ways and become more than I could have ever imagined. Faith is what has brought me through the many difficulties I’ve faced in my life, especially the chronic illness that has been my constant companion for the past 13 years. Faith has brought me through the times that I could see no future and the times I began once again to question my purpose, I found the strength to keep going, even when I felt most abandoned.
Not long after becoming a Christian, I discovered the music of Steven Curtis Chapman. He was one of the artists that touched me and taught me about life and about faith. In May this year, a terrible tragedy struck the Chapman family when their 5 year old daughter was accidentally killed in the driveway of their home.
When I heard the news I felt great pain for the family and today I watched a family share with real strength and grace what faith really is. I was so touched by it I felt I needed to share it here.
Life is full of difficulty but trusting in God, even when your heart just wants to scream out “Why!?” is what faith is all about.
Here’s a news article about the story followed by the family’s appearance on Larry King Live last week.
Leave Comment;Unimaginable tragedy struck the Chapman family the evening of May 21 when their 5-year-old daughter Maria Sue was accidentally killed by an SUV driven by her 17-year-old brother, Will Franklin.
“At first you don’t even know if you can breathe. You don’t know if you are going to survive the grief and the deep, deep, deep sadness,” says Grammy-winning Christian singer Steven Curtis Chapman, who sat down with his family for an emotional interview with PEOPLE at their Franklin, Tenn., home. “You just want to lay down and die.”
Wrestling with the pain of his daughter’s death and the anguish of the son who was at the wheel, Chapman says, “every lyric I’ve ever written has been tested beyond what I ever imagined.”
But the deeply religious family says the loss of Maria, who was adopted from China in 2004 (two more daughters, Shaoey, 9 next week, and Stevey Joy, 5, were also adopted from that country), served to strengthen their belief. “Faith is the only way I can tell myself she’s okay. She’s safe in the arms of Jesus and she’s flyin’ around,” says Will, who continues, along with other family members, to see a counselor.
Steven’s wife Mary Beth admits that healing is slow: “I’m broken and I would give anything to have my baby girl back. But that’s not going to happen. So I wake up in the morning and make a choice. You can wallow in the deep end or you say, ‘God, show me what you want me to be about today and how can I honor you, and in turn honor Maria.’”
Steven, Mary Beth, Will and oldest son Caleb, 18, all have gotten tattoos in honor of the little girl they called ‘our laughter’. A photo of Mary Beth’s tattoo and more from the family can be found in this week’s PEOPLE.